How you are treated by the people around you is not a measure of who you are, or how you deserve to be treated. Let the tears well up and let them fall but dry them as soon as you can because you have to be the light for others who need help. Don’t waste effort, emotions and time on people who are long gone. Let them be and let God have His way. The things of this life are not eternal, so why are you fussing over things that are merely temporary?
Now I know, now I understand why sin and disobedience has consequences. I chose to invest my time and love in the wrong person, and look where it got me.