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Can I sail through the changing ocean tides

“You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze, bound by the surprise of our glory days.”
– Someone Like You (Adele)

Listening to covers while doing econs essays, so therapeutic and gets my mind off things. Feeling the motivation to change myself for the better, circumstances call for it. Ingrid Michaelson is officially my fav singer btw, next to taylor swift and katy perry ^^ I love singers who write their own songs, you can really feel their emotions through what they’re singing and somehow it makes it more relatable.

Had a great weekend spent with the best people I could ever ask for, so thankful for the rest tht I got, hope tht I’m recharged enough and ready for the week ahead of me. Haven’t had a ball Friday in so long, just being able to laugh all my stress away and to sweat it all out really made me satisfied and happy. It’s these moments that make all the stress in school worth it hehe. Best friends came over yesterday, been a while since we were that crazy tgt, appreciate them soooooo much :) did so many weird and stupid things hahaha and relived my embarrassing days x_x I have so many embarrassing moments it’s terrible. Esp the spiderman one lololol. Whined about math, helped each other w math, took polaroids, ate like 3 little pigs, sang while strumming the guitar (lol I know how to play some songs okay) Thank God for an awesome day!!

I don’t rly like posting on wp cos it sends the weird thing to twitter which I can’t seem to turn off :o which means I have to go to twitter to delete it, so iwwitateeng. And after being away from twitter for a while I realised it’s like being your own paparazzi announcing every single thing you do to people you may not really know!! Haha it’s also quite amusing (or scary?) how someone posts something like ‘you ruined my day’ or ‘go eat shit’ (ok bad examples) then everyone thinks it’s them? And most of the time it isn’t. And when I post acronyms everyone reads it LOL. But in a sense you understand more about people, stuff they don’t tell you they may post on twitter haha. Oh well, shall cut down even after promos, hehe me is social media rebel~

Oh we watched a documentary about surrogacy on natgeo just now, kind of teared when I saw how heartbroken the surrogate mothers were when they had to give their babies away.. I guess I’ll never really understand the connection between the mother and the baby till I actly have one, and how people would do anything to get a baby, even if it means giving birth through another person. But watching it really made me realise how fortunate we are living on luxuries when some people in India and other 3rd world countries barely have a house to live in. It’s so impt to constantly remind ourselves how lucky we are because in an environment like Singapore it’s so easy to get caught up in the competitiveness and to be stuck in misery. So thank you God, and may we be a blessing to your children elsewhere every day of our lives :)

Gna get my capo today, excited!! Gna try my luck to persuade mum into getting us a ukelele too HAHA. Okay peace out yall. X

P.S. I know you’re not okay, but I can’t seem to help you with much can I? :(
P.P.S. Why am I so socially awkward HAHA

Sometimes I wonder who reads this space hahaha

(edit) Woah okay wth you act so sweet normally now I know how bad your temper is :o scary~

Meh

1. I know I’m not supposed to be feeling like this but my dislike for you is growing :( rah gotta pray abt this..
2. There are some people tht I can just never fully open up to no matter how hard I try
3. Sorry but it just hurts too much to relive the pain, and maybe by keeping it to myself I’ll believe it isn’t true.
4. Pls ignore me forever and I’ll be eternally grateful
5. You rly don’t need to prove yourself.
6. Little time left to buck up, must go full speed ahead >:(

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”
(Philippians 4:6-7)

Pressing on!!!!

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Far Away

I will live my life as a lobsterman’s wife on an island in the blue bay.
He will take care of me, he will smell like the sea,
And close to my heart he’ll always stay.

I will bear three girls all with strawberry curls, little Ella and
Nelly and Faye.
While I’m combing their hair, I will catch his warm stare
On our island in the blue bay.

Far away far away, I want to go far away.
To a new life on a new shore line.
Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another island, in another life.

There’s a boy next to me and he never will be anything but a boy at the bar.
And I think he’s the tops, he’s where everything stops.
How I love to love him from afar.

When he walks right pass me then I finally see on this bar stool I can’t stay.
So I’m taking my frown to a far distant town
On an island in the blue bay.

Far away far away, I want to go far away.
To a new life on a new shore line.
Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another island, in another life.

I want to go far away.
Away away, I want to go far away, away, away
I want to go far away, far away.

Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another life, to another life.
To another shore line
In another life.

This song is sooooo cute!! Just reached home from SMU’s Convocation 2011 and it was really an eye opener must blog about it before I go to bed haha. There was this guy Mechai Viravaidya who shared about the concept of the Bamboo School (it really exists in Thailand) and their education system there, you can go read it about it here if you haven’t but seriously, it focuses so much more on helping the community and the society instead of focusing on competitiveness and individualism, like in Singapore. And reading the stories online about God and everything, super heartwarming :’) Can’t really stand Singapore’s education system sometimes :( I wanna move to Thailand plox~ It’s like my dream education system!!!! But it seems like an impossible dream in Singapore…. sigh. Although I was really really inspired by his speech the more I read about it the more I love the idea!! I might go there after As ^^ I guess I’m really a dreamer, is that a good or a bad thing?

University life seems extremely appealing haha really can’t wait for A levels to be over everyone says that JC will be the worst 2 years of your life and I can’t say I disagree so far. The performances were so gooood and so impressive especially the hiphop and the chinese dance omg *_* My favourite has got to be SMU’s Voix which is kind of like an acapella group they did warbler songs which totally made me have goosebumps haha. Really like glee sia omg. Found their video on youtube hehe go watch the others too they’re damn good!!! :D

Oh and softball was super fun today, can’t wait to play our next game hehe. Okay maybe school isn’t that bad after all.. ok enough about my ramblings, back to the dreadful JC life :( Ok no just kidding, I’m gonna be positive cos it’s the weekend! WHEEEEEE ^_^

P.S. I wish you knew.

The sun had painted patterns on your face

(Morning Lullabies – Ingrid Michaelson)

I’m in love with Ingrid Michaelson’s voice and all her songs hehe could listen to them all day. Went to see the fireworks and the NDP Parade at Marina Mandarin yesterday with the family, was a really pretty sight and good family bonding time, we had fondue, which has become our yearly tradition. Brought econs there but didn’t even touch my file. This weekend was extremely unproductive apart from the mugging with the band peeps and today maybe, but instead of finishing my econs report I watched 3 movies – Hairspray, Beastly and Valentine’s Day this weekend, yay me HAHAHA. Ok at least I’m done with my econs report and gonna start on Lit soon. Thank God tomorrow’s a Thursday. Going to camp at the learning centre till 9, can’t stand studying at home any longer – there’s food, my computer, food, nail polish, my clarinet, etcetc. Yes I know I get distracted at the slightest thing. When will I ever learn to be disciplined… And omg the food and chocolate, if people actually see how much I eat at home.. #singleforlyf trololol~

So many things bothering me lately.. I’m really tired of doing what I don’t like to do. Feeling rather failure-ish of late, like hi I can’t even get my grades up, I’m forever disorganized, always late, not keeping my promises, and the list goes on. And I hate how I never learn from my mistakes, and just end up doing the same stupid things over and over again even though I know how to avoid them. And Iflidafg, bidkwttbmsindwh -_- I feel like my mum is trusting me more now, but I’m just afraid to lose it again so I’m trying to be as honest as I can with her. I feel like I’m not putting enough effort in relationships as I used to. I keep dwelling on things that I cannot change, I keep looking back to the past like that will do me any good. And sometimes it’s just better to keep all these shitty thoughts to myself because no one will wanna hear it, or have anything to say in response for that matter. Ultimately only I can change myself, so why bother other people with all my worries. I guess that’s just part of my personality too, used to solving my own problems, or rather, neglecting them by myself. Better to be miserable alone than to trouble others huh. Yea I say things a lot, I picture things a lot, but when it comes to action where am I? :( It’s just really hard to find someone who understands too.

Sigh. Honestly can’t wait for the next weekend already.