Heart Of The Matter

I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I’ve been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning them again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn’t keep us warm

I’ve been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carryin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside

I want a happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore

I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh gets weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Even if you don’t love me anymore

This is a really really good song. I heard it in Year 1 but now I realise how powerful the lyrics are :) Oh & Loser Like Me and Get It Right from the new Glee episode is awesome also!!!!! Good music makes my day :D

I am starting Term 2 afresh. Term 1 didn’t exactly see a real me, just someone caught up with tests and work and too focused on not screwing everything up and too concerned about what people think of her. That person is gone!!!! Poof. I hope she never comes back because¬† I am determined to make Term 2 a good one!! Seriously I’m gonna need lots of courage and determination to pull through but I can do it with God! I’m not going to try to put everything under my control anymore, do you know how tiring that is? To constantly try to make things go your way, your selfish way. It makes me really sick to know how selfish I can be sometimes. :( Oh well, here’s to starting anew! First step is to try to complete my homework on time, HEHE holiday homework sucks big timeee.

I hope I get my bubbly side back soon, cos right now it seems to only appear in front of the sh clarinets HAHA. And I think A LOT about everything this year, like seriously everything.. which is why I’m quiet most of the time.. I think people think I’m very shy or quiet or wdv. I shall try to be friendlier to people ehe. Eh so excited for the juniors their syf is coming really soon!!! So is ours but we’re all giving our best I have faith in #dhssb!!! Ok I know like by week 5/6 I’ll be feeling quite cui already, so WISH ME LUCK EVERYBODY. Shall keep looking forward to the june holidays and sydney! I am going on a fb and twitter fast for 2 weeks I think, think I can handle it?!?!?!?! Challenge accepted. HAHA it’s gonna be really tough but at least I has tumblr my secret lover. Yay I can do this!

Jiayou to all friends/ strangers who are struggling out there, you are not alone!!! Look behind you.

LOL I’m so funny right. I mean everyone is struggling too so let’s all jiayou tgt!!!

Let’s look at my goals fr Term 2. Haha.
1. Make frequent visits to KWSH to talk to the old folks there!!!
2. Become a stronger woman of God! Not to get distracted by anything else,be more courageous in speaking the word of God, uphold the true image of a Christ ambassador, love people, love my family and friends even more, get to know my lg mates more!
3. Not to have any overdue homework. (NOT COUNTING THE HOLIDAY HW)
4. Score a B for my next math test! (omg pls pls pls pls pls)
5. Put in my best for practising Lotus/ Memories of Friendship, get everything right!!!
6. Do my best for Touch Rug.
7. Get to know my classmates better (new seating arrangement yayz! I’m at the front as usual haha eh it’s a good thing)
8. Plan awesome birthdays and make time for the people I haven’t talked to in so long :( :( :(

Haha I’m not being too unrealistic am I? Hope not. Okie then! Back 2 work. I pray that I will be more productive this time! Amen.

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