HAHAHA

Omg I have to blog about today before I forget it all!!!! It was such a horrible yet happy day at the same time. Hahaha. Ok so yesterday I was basically feeling VERY VERY VERY stressed about today because I had 2.4, physics test and PW back to back I was damn scared and stressed because apparently my brain prefers focusing on one thing at a time. I seriously hit a record in 2.4 though. LAST PLACE – 88. Anyway I don’t regret using that one minute to help sherlyn and I hope she gets well soon!!!!!! It was so scary sigh. Ugh I am so unfit to think I’m a clarinet player…. BUT ANYWAY IT’S OVER. So after the thing I was very very stressed about physics because I didn’t study much, and the worrywart me was worrying about Q&A because I was so sure I would screw it up.

Dragged myself to change, then it was physics lesson. Mrs Har didn’t bring any papers to class, and…. IT TURNED OUT THE TEST WAS POSTPONED TO THE LATER PART OF THE DAY! :) Hahaha was so happy so I could finally focus on PW. Presentation went ok, though I was shaking a lot and gave really short answers for Q&A –  but I was glad my question asked wasn’t that difficult hehe prayed a lot before the thing, God is good :) From here things started going uphill! Got back my maths test and I PASSED FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME IN 2010!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA record breaking day. I’m really very grateful because I used to be F and this test I got A+ omggggg happy is an understatement really.Thank you sophin and terence yong!!!

Then Xin Tian, Sophin, Gerald and I got REALLY REALLY HIGH HAHAHAH OMG after maths was HCL and we laughed for the entire one hour then it was recess and me gerald and sophin laughed more for another half and hour HAHAHAHAHA. SOPHIN’S JOKES ARE SO COLD OMG BRRRRRR HAHAHA & Me and gerald formed a group called the fishes and we performed for sophin and amanda. You know the sound you make with your lips?? We did it to the tune of mary had a little lamb yea so it went sth like ‘blub blub blub blub BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA’ and we couldn’t get the song out hahaha hilarious. Then when the class came back we showed xin tian and laughed a whole lot more hehehe – good relaxation before physics test :)

But physics test was screwed ttm, couldn’t do the last question @ all.. SIGH MY GPA.

Then math remedial > wanted to go for fwg but it dragged until so late so I had to go home ugh when will my mum let me have my freedom.

So tmr = HSSRP w jm and yb, meeting bottomless pit, & STEP dinner at night!
Saturday = universal studios + vivienne’s birthday sleepover wahoooo
Monday = Movie + hopefully some time for myself!!!!!!!!!!!! Need a break badly

Watching the 9 o’clock show – OMG LAO SHI CANNOT DIE HE’S SO NICE :(
Watched hello baby shinee just now – YOOGEUN IS DARN CUTE AWWWW
Gonna cuddle up in my bed to read my book with air con

edit: OMG HE DIED. 对不起我们尽力了is the most overused line in hospital scenes in the history of Mediacorp!!!!!!!!

Happy

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t you take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can’t let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it’s just that I can’t see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

Lazy Sunday

Lazy Sunday. ‘ve been dl-ing videos while doing bio/ physics/ french. Not been v productive so far hehe.. I’m so lucky to have my family and I can never thank God enough for them :) I can’t wait for next weekend!! Just realised ytd that I’m of legal age to play pool hahaha & I need to go watch an NC16 movie soon.

Actually school has been damn stressful, everyone’s competitive and I feel like screaming at people most of the time. My SGC makes me feel like such a loser. Life always sucks on a weekday with lessons and the heat and the low self-esteem. Compared to everyone in my class I’m seriously like at the bottom………….. Apart from some very awesome people in my life who never fail to cheer me up of course haha but in the end it all comes down to what? Grades, results, number of competitions you join, awards you win for the school etc. I’m pretty sick of it actually. Have to be strong enough to endure this nonsense for a ‘better future’. Every single Monday I look forward to Friday and the weekend. I don’t want to live life like this!!!!!!!!

Enough crap better cherish whatever’s left of my Sunday. Seeya

P.S. I love prawns (and my PW mates)

Hope you’re listening

I have so much to update here but so little time to do so :( Had PW earlier & have to leave for a birthday dinner now bringing camera out whoosh first time Im touching it in a week! Bye (K)

PW really isn’t pleasant at all :( Can’t imagine what it’ll be like next year I think it’s gonna be 10 times worse. Jiayou to my grp members <3 I feel like I’m super irritable sometimes & I really hate that side of myself because I lose my temper just so easily and will snap at literally anyone. Facebook is being so uncooperative I give up on uploading rescue heartbeat pictures. Gimme your thumbdrive if you want the pics ppl! Kor is still in Taiwan, weekends are super boring without him sigh. Was supposed to fly a kite today but ended up spending time at tuition with terence and sophin instead. Productive, but I was ttly brain dead when it ended. Woo differentiation sounds damn interesting -_- Ate my favourite dinner in a long time with my parents and we had black pepper crab hehe,, my mum is my dad’s first gf and vice versa, I love my parents they are so cute my dad bought dumb bells to train up his muscles but my mum and I just keep laughing @ him hahaha. Tmr is a monday I can’t believe time is passing so quickly. Went to service on saturday I feel like I haven’t been there in ages. Thought about a lot of stuff.. won’t say it here. Need to free up more of my saturdays for God because I always feel motivated aft service. Went to mos for milk tea before tht, straws with holes ftw. I’m praying hard for a better week, I kind of need it. CIP tmr, 5 items and third lang on tues, snr high band on wed, fwg on thurs, dance concert on friday, joey’s bday @laguna on sat, and it’ll be sunday again. I want time to pass slowly on mon and fri and the weekends but quickly on the rest of the days. Excited for sth I am planning hehehehe k: I am actually watching star awards and it’s getting quite boring. I wanna watch a movie with microwave popcorn with some friends sometime. Haha random much okay back to work have a good night whoever who’s here

Hope

Hiiiiiii.

Excited for the things coming my way, I know I won’t be disappointed! :)

I’ve got a tight grip on reality

1. 2nd place, love my group :) Great experience hehehe
2. Band tmr (mahler?)
3. Am screwing up all my relationships with people
4. I HATE EYEBAGS AND MY TENDENCY TO GET THEM.
5. Drained, but tmr’s Friday :) PLEASE DON’T RAIN

Sometimes I think reality > dreams, because someday you’re gonna have to fall hard, and when you do, who’s gonna be there to pick you up?